Tuesday, August 25, 2009
INSPIRATION
I do not want to imagine that I am playing a cat and mouse game with God regarding going to church, but it is such a shame that I am actually not going. Okay I do not mean to state that I hardly ever think of going to church, but I guess in truth, I really try. I try to go to church and I would Love to go to church. Reason, suddenly, I want to have this relationship with the Father in richness and fulfillment and always remember than I am His child. Going to church to me is about obligation and returning to my Father what He has given to me over the days that have passed. It is the only time I think I would spend listening to Him through his people's sermon about Him and most of the time, He gives me the answers to my questions through these men of God.
It is tough, but I have to try and try and try and make sure I do have time for God. It is painful when I realize that I do have time to do other things but when it comes to God I do not have time for Him. Yes I do pray and read the Bible, but He is telling me there is more that I can do now so that in the future it will make me a better person. I do know that, I do know that He has plans for me.
So what is really bothering me? I spend too much time thinking about my dreams, hopes and inspirations and forget that God is a part of each one of them. I do believe I am aware of the fact that God knows my dreams, hopes and inspiration but I let Him down so badly by not letting Him do His will. The only way for Him to do His will is by me giving Him my everything.
I want to give Him everything of me, so that the only thing I gain is His righteousness and all that is in Him. I do want to give Him the much undivided attention, by looking at Him in a way that I am aware of His presence without asking for too much. I am waiting for a sign...keep pressuring Him I need a sign...always insisting and at the end of the day, because I do not have much faith to tell Him it is well with my soul...I think the Potter just keeps me aside and waits until I am ready and softhearted enough to be moulded into His own likeness and image.
I pray and believe that this coming Sunday, it will be the beginning of looking forward to all coming Sundays and thereafter revelation after revelation from God Himself.
Friday, August 21, 2009
RISING ABOVE HUMANITY
We must at least agree that Christianity is not about two woods nailed to form a cross. The manner in which Jesus Christ died and worse still calling out to God who at the crucial moment seemed so far away. Having thought about Teddy Omondi’s note regarding forgiveness, I have concluded that in all matters regarding to God, in three persons, I am left asking myself whether I am a better child to God or I am hopelessly losing out a battle as I fight to claim a share of heaven. I am placed in a situation what exactly God wants from us and how He wants it done. Why never seems part of the puzzle because the answers come sooner or latter. Just ask yourself the same question…what does God want from you?
And in a world that has succumbed to the ‘me, myself and I’ concept, trust me, I desire not only to know God more, but to rest assured that I am doing what I ought to do as a soldier in the battle. Or easier said, I am concerned about what God thinks about me and the more I think about it, the more I understand and become aware of my human errors, weaknesses, and strength. The way I charge forward to a world of uncertainty, and how I must leave behind the past. Forgiving, loving, been compassionate, kind, patient, non-judgmental…name all of them, how do I take up the cross and charge into the world like Jesus Christ did? I hope you get me; because as a human being, I will have the tendency to refuse to love because after all I have never been loved. I will refuse to be generous because that is all I have. I will refuse to be patient because I do not have all the time in the world and here is Jesus Christ who seemed to have all the time in the world to be there for the lost souls. Here is a man who took time to rebuke, and fight for truth…a man who chose to weep at the loss of the one he loved even when he knew he would have life and much more. Turn to yourself and reflect on these matters; does it bother you?
In deed it does bother me, and I have found myself talking more and more to God about my personality so as to ensure that rather than me reflecting me, I reflect the glory of God, His righteousness and Holiness. As a result, the cross becomes more unbearable to carry, the fear of persecution and the idea of losing touch with reality then finally I get to understand what it is God wants from me when He says, my body is the temple of the Holy One, that the old is gone and the new one is here…it occurs to me I must learn to rise above my humanity just as much as Jesus Christ lowered Himself to the ways of humanity. Few people have reached that ultimate peak of satisfaction…very few indeed. I am talking about men and women who have learnt to change for God’s sake. Just imagine for instant Nelson Mandela; he did rise above his humanity and has taught us we can fight for truth and learn to forgive. Or Abraham even to the point of despair believed that God would provide, or Moses who rather than beat about the bush, had the courage to face the burning bush.
I do not know about you, but Christianity has changed, there is more about it that our human systems can offer us and I am challenging you…look to God and believe in the unbelievable.
And in a world that has succumbed to the ‘me, myself and I’ concept, trust me, I desire not only to know God more, but to rest assured that I am doing what I ought to do as a soldier in the battle. Or easier said, I am concerned about what God thinks about me and the more I think about it, the more I understand and become aware of my human errors, weaknesses, and strength. The way I charge forward to a world of uncertainty, and how I must leave behind the past. Forgiving, loving, been compassionate, kind, patient, non-judgmental…name all of them, how do I take up the cross and charge into the world like Jesus Christ did? I hope you get me; because as a human being, I will have the tendency to refuse to love because after all I have never been loved. I will refuse to be generous because that is all I have. I will refuse to be patient because I do not have all the time in the world and here is Jesus Christ who seemed to have all the time in the world to be there for the lost souls. Here is a man who took time to rebuke, and fight for truth…a man who chose to weep at the loss of the one he loved even when he knew he would have life and much more. Turn to yourself and reflect on these matters; does it bother you?
In deed it does bother me, and I have found myself talking more and more to God about my personality so as to ensure that rather than me reflecting me, I reflect the glory of God, His righteousness and Holiness. As a result, the cross becomes more unbearable to carry, the fear of persecution and the idea of losing touch with reality then finally I get to understand what it is God wants from me when He says, my body is the temple of the Holy One, that the old is gone and the new one is here…it occurs to me I must learn to rise above my humanity just as much as Jesus Christ lowered Himself to the ways of humanity. Few people have reached that ultimate peak of satisfaction…very few indeed. I am talking about men and women who have learnt to change for God’s sake. Just imagine for instant Nelson Mandela; he did rise above his humanity and has taught us we can fight for truth and learn to forgive. Or Abraham even to the point of despair believed that God would provide, or Moses who rather than beat about the bush, had the courage to face the burning bush.
I do not know about you, but Christianity has changed, there is more about it that our human systems can offer us and I am challenging you…look to God and believe in the unbelievable.
CINDERELLA: WHEN JESUS CALMED THE STORM
Cinderella is no extraordinary girl. Just the girl next door who has a troubled past and wishes for a chance like any other girls to see the world through the magnifying glass. Anyone who has read her story would find her a very captivating girl, beautifully sculptured for anyone’s imagination. In the outside Cinderella is a wonderful person, in the outside, she is dying.
She is the kind of woman who has locked herself into the world of hopelessness and has learnt to keep herself in the dungeon of despair. She is the kind of woman outside there who has no idea what lies beneath her, the one who lets the others use her so long as they know she does not know what she is capable of. The opportunity has arisen for Cinderella to shine and seems otherwise when her step mother forbids her from venturing into the world outside. The kind of person who tells you it is impossible….because they know your possibilities are limitless and they help you lock your potential in a dungeon…they know.
It is time to break away, tame the seas and give away the shame to the wind, because it has never occurred to Cinderella that the world is bigger than what her mind is able to capture and when her fairy godmother steps in to rescue her, she realizes the potential of her inside lies within what she has in her mind. When the changes happen, Cinderella takes her first step into the world outside and she sees it as a retreat from the hollowness of her soul. With one condition, she needs to get back to reality before midnight…and abandon her old self .Cinderella has no idea what the future holds, but even as God was taking her to the world, He knew that and had equipped her for the task ahead. She has the courage to make things happen but…the many buts of life that hold us back.
Cinderella is one of the million of us who prefer the comfort of what we know rather than the change that we must embrace and her dungeon is better than what the Prince Charming has to offer her and the storm within her rages for a while before the Prince Charming calms the sea and lets her see further beyond the calmness of her heart.
Jesus Christ told the disciples to set out to the other side of the lake (Luke 8:22-25) which they did, and while they were crossing over, there was a storm and one of them said to Jesus, “Master Master, we’re going to drown!” Now Jesus was asleep, so he woke up and rebuked the wind and the raging waters…then he asked, “Where is your faith?”
Whatever reason Jesus decided to take a nap….the same reason Cinderella’s godmother did not go with her to the ball. They knew both Cinderella and the disciples had the courage to calm the storm that would be ahead of them. We can always have the slippers of our lives if we want. However, it takes the strength to hold to the slippers, because happily ever after is a stage going and coming and many things to learn.
What do you believe? What is your faith? Can you be like Moses, part the sea and cross over or keep the staff and remain with the oppressors? Like Steve Biko said, “The greatest weapon in the hands of the oppressors is the mind of the oppressed.”
She is the kind of woman who has locked herself into the world of hopelessness and has learnt to keep herself in the dungeon of despair. She is the kind of woman outside there who has no idea what lies beneath her, the one who lets the others use her so long as they know she does not know what she is capable of. The opportunity has arisen for Cinderella to shine and seems otherwise when her step mother forbids her from venturing into the world outside. The kind of person who tells you it is impossible….because they know your possibilities are limitless and they help you lock your potential in a dungeon…they know.
It is time to break away, tame the seas and give away the shame to the wind, because it has never occurred to Cinderella that the world is bigger than what her mind is able to capture and when her fairy godmother steps in to rescue her, she realizes the potential of her inside lies within what she has in her mind. When the changes happen, Cinderella takes her first step into the world outside and she sees it as a retreat from the hollowness of her soul. With one condition, she needs to get back to reality before midnight…and abandon her old self .Cinderella has no idea what the future holds, but even as God was taking her to the world, He knew that and had equipped her for the task ahead. She has the courage to make things happen but…the many buts of life that hold us back.
Cinderella is one of the million of us who prefer the comfort of what we know rather than the change that we must embrace and her dungeon is better than what the Prince Charming has to offer her and the storm within her rages for a while before the Prince Charming calms the sea and lets her see further beyond the calmness of her heart.
Jesus Christ told the disciples to set out to the other side of the lake (Luke 8:22-25) which they did, and while they were crossing over, there was a storm and one of them said to Jesus, “Master Master, we’re going to drown!” Now Jesus was asleep, so he woke up and rebuked the wind and the raging waters…then he asked, “Where is your faith?”
Whatever reason Jesus decided to take a nap….the same reason Cinderella’s godmother did not go with her to the ball. They knew both Cinderella and the disciples had the courage to calm the storm that would be ahead of them. We can always have the slippers of our lives if we want. However, it takes the strength to hold to the slippers, because happily ever after is a stage going and coming and many things to learn.
What do you believe? What is your faith? Can you be like Moses, part the sea and cross over or keep the staff and remain with the oppressors? Like Steve Biko said, “The greatest weapon in the hands of the oppressors is the mind of the oppressed.”
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Entering the world
In all fairness, I have no idea why I started this blog. And apparently it has been lying idle since November 2008. Still, I have a lot to say without speaking them out. I can tell you about life without getting to make it look like a dull affair.
Sometimes I have nothing to write about here, but it never means that I am suffering from a major writers block...just that probably I need to talk about something with the right set of moods. No point writing about something sad when I am happy.
So I begin my blog with the way I feel right now. Like now I feel so humbled that I am speechless before God and I do not want to say a thing because I know He knows what I feel.
It could have been different yesterday and probably all those other days but I never get a chance to compare and contrast each day because after all...I think each day is totally different, has it moments, and its opportunities.
I wanted to write a story, but I figured hell no, and reason been, a story...fictitious story is penned not typed online. I think there is a difference. My world is larger than I thought. Today I spent most of the evening gawking in amazement at great sense of photography. I was torn between the genuineness of the photos and assuming that they were painted otherwise. However the one greatest art of all arts that took me by grand surprise was the art of cake decoration. Wow!!!! It was and will be the only thing I will never forget.
The twisted colour and texture that brought out cakes to look exotic yet simple and nearly affordable!!!!
Trust me, you can bake a cake and decorate it to your specifics with a lot of grandeur without feeling the pinch of your pocket. That was just one side of the cake decorating art. They were daring and so bold...in any case there is a new generation of minds which think beyond the ordinary and chase no longer after winds but a reality which is brought alive by art itself.
I have learnt that baking cakes, decorating them and displaying them is a way into one person's personality. Be it the portrayal of modernism, traditional flair, or classic touch to it, the characteristic of a person is bound to show up in the the way a cake is designed. Like a house, the foundation is based on what one really wants and perceived to make a cake wholesome. Flour, eggs, baking powder, cocoa, milk, fruits chocolate among other ingredients make a basic cake. The richer the foundation the more sensual the cake and firm it will be . I love my cakes with vanilla essence and or with dark chocolate and fruits (most likely sultanas and raisin). The daring part of me would settle for nuts. If you are genuine fan of Nutfield...the company has a gift in creating honey coated nuts that make you understand the implication of lust if not gluttony. Hence, I began to ponder with the idea of filling cakes with nuts particularly peanuts and macadamia.
Do not get me wrong, I have just gone through a cake design website and it has resurrected in me the spirit of bakery and its artistry. I long to have a chance to venture into that art of baking and giving it the adventure that my mind can afford to reveal to the hands what God has placed in my mind...Gifted Hands.
From the foundation, when a cake has been baked and is ready, begins a job for a few chosen ones. Dressing up a cake for an occasion is like an occasion itself. Whatever you do with it, whatever you think of while you bring life to a cake, it is one of the most relishing moment for any cake lover. Whether it is the Black Forest, or Carrot cake or Devil Food cake, it is like watching in amazement as a new born child enters into a world from the mother's womb. It is the act of self actualization and giving this one form of food a sense of purpose and life. Let us admit it, we all want to eat the cake, but while you look at it, you see the soul and life of it. If you are a lover of fine things, you will even do exactly what the Father did, say it is good. You would be proud like the Father is proud when He looks at each one of us with such love.
I do not mean to make cakes look like heaven...they are not, they are just a part of our lives which speak for themselves with such beauty. Some of them are so limp and timid like I'd say Marble cake, others are as wicked as the Devil's food cake and others are just sweet tempered as the Carrot cake...they do have a personality as human beings.
Or may be as I think about how much the Father's love is so deep, I am left so speechless I do not know what to say of Him. I am left with the feeling of utter Joy that as much as it was painful that Jesus Christ had to go through all that, at least it was for the best of each one of us. The deed has been done and He has shown us How much the Father's love run deep.
It is my way of entering a world of my own where thoughts can be jumbled but with time they begin to make sense.
Genesis 1:1-2, "In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters."
I have just began, and I will continue to emulate the work of God, and pray that writing it down on blog will help you understand God in the way I understand and LOVE Him...
Sometimes I have nothing to write about here, but it never means that I am suffering from a major writers block...just that probably I need to talk about something with the right set of moods. No point writing about something sad when I am happy.
So I begin my blog with the way I feel right now. Like now I feel so humbled that I am speechless before God and I do not want to say a thing because I know He knows what I feel.
It could have been different yesterday and probably all those other days but I never get a chance to compare and contrast each day because after all...I think each day is totally different, has it moments, and its opportunities.
I wanted to write a story, but I figured hell no, and reason been, a story...fictitious story is penned not typed online. I think there is a difference. My world is larger than I thought. Today I spent most of the evening gawking in amazement at great sense of photography. I was torn between the genuineness of the photos and assuming that they were painted otherwise. However the one greatest art of all arts that took me by grand surprise was the art of cake decoration. Wow!!!! It was and will be the only thing I will never forget.
The twisted colour and texture that brought out cakes to look exotic yet simple and nearly affordable!!!!
Trust me, you can bake a cake and decorate it to your specifics with a lot of grandeur without feeling the pinch of your pocket. That was just one side of the cake decorating art. They were daring and so bold...in any case there is a new generation of minds which think beyond the ordinary and chase no longer after winds but a reality which is brought alive by art itself.
I have learnt that baking cakes, decorating them and displaying them is a way into one person's personality. Be it the portrayal of modernism, traditional flair, or classic touch to it, the characteristic of a person is bound to show up in the the way a cake is designed. Like a house, the foundation is based on what one really wants and perceived to make a cake wholesome. Flour, eggs, baking powder, cocoa, milk, fruits chocolate among other ingredients make a basic cake. The richer the foundation the more sensual the cake and firm it will be . I love my cakes with vanilla essence and or with dark chocolate and fruits (most likely sultanas and raisin). The daring part of me would settle for nuts. If you are genuine fan of Nutfield...the company has a gift in creating honey coated nuts that make you understand the implication of lust if not gluttony. Hence, I began to ponder with the idea of filling cakes with nuts particularly peanuts and macadamia.
Do not get me wrong, I have just gone through a cake design website and it has resurrected in me the spirit of bakery and its artistry. I long to have a chance to venture into that art of baking and giving it the adventure that my mind can afford to reveal to the hands what God has placed in my mind...Gifted Hands.
From the foundation, when a cake has been baked and is ready, begins a job for a few chosen ones. Dressing up a cake for an occasion is like an occasion itself. Whatever you do with it, whatever you think of while you bring life to a cake, it is one of the most relishing moment for any cake lover. Whether it is the Black Forest, or Carrot cake or Devil Food cake, it is like watching in amazement as a new born child enters into a world from the mother's womb. It is the act of self actualization and giving this one form of food a sense of purpose and life. Let us admit it, we all want to eat the cake, but while you look at it, you see the soul and life of it. If you are a lover of fine things, you will even do exactly what the Father did, say it is good. You would be proud like the Father is proud when He looks at each one of us with such love.
I do not mean to make cakes look like heaven...they are not, they are just a part of our lives which speak for themselves with such beauty. Some of them are so limp and timid like I'd say Marble cake, others are as wicked as the Devil's food cake and others are just sweet tempered as the Carrot cake...they do have a personality as human beings.
Or may be as I think about how much the Father's love is so deep, I am left so speechless I do not know what to say of Him. I am left with the feeling of utter Joy that as much as it was painful that Jesus Christ had to go through all that, at least it was for the best of each one of us. The deed has been done and He has shown us How much the Father's love run deep.
It is my way of entering a world of my own where thoughts can be jumbled but with time they begin to make sense.
Genesis 1:1-2, "In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters."
I have just began, and I will continue to emulate the work of God, and pray that writing it down on blog will help you understand God in the way I understand and LOVE Him...
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
