Joel Osteen was speaking and I got thinking about the deep conversation between Abram and God. In other word, God had noted that Abram had acquired land that was not like Lot and He encouraged Abram,
"The LORD said to Abram after Lot had parted from him,
"Lift up your eyes from where you are and look north and south, east and west. 15 All the land that you see I will give to you and your offspring a]">[a] forever. 16 I will make your offspring like the dust of the earth, so that if anyone could count the dust, then your offspring could be counted. 17 Go, walk through the length and breadth of the land, for I am giving it to you."
Genesis 13:14-17
"The LORD said to Abram after Lot had parted from him,
"Lift up your eyes from where you are and look north and south, east and west. 15 All the land that you see I will give to you and your offspring a]">[a] forever. 16 I will make your offspring like the dust of the earth, so that if anyone could count the dust, then your offspring could be counted. 17 Go, walk through the length and breadth of the land, for I am giving it to you."
Genesis 13:14-17
That is what I saw desperately want to hear God telling me and I want to believe these words over and over again like making it become water flowing into me like I am in a desert and I need the Living Word to quench my thirst...oh yes!!!! That is what I really want it to be.
Each day I am praying that we shall reconnect it a greater understanding then I pause and wonder whether I am for real or it is just a wish. I am trying to tell God about a hope in my heart, this kind of desire, but it is like I am seated on a fence and I am giving God misguided intention. I do not want any heartbreaks and it is not like I am hoping for one. I made God a promise that I would not let Him down and that I would stick to the hope in my heart come what may. I do not want to give up on this one and I want it to really work.
I have no justifications whatsoever, or may be it is a plea...on the surface I am not really sure how to say things and even blogging might not help get things straight in my heart.
But despite my troubles, God still is patient with me and asks me to lift up my eyes from where I am. It is like He has paused and taken my hand and is telling me something that I really need to hear.
I cannot lose hope at this point in my life, I can neither go back nor sit in my position and worry or be troubled. The opportunities awaiting me are vast and God is encouraging me to reach out with stretched up to conquer what I hope for.
But what puts my spirit back to the top is He knows what I am going through and that is why He asks me to lift up my eyes. God has assured me that all will happen at the right time.
And I will continue to pray until something happens.
Each day I am praying that we shall reconnect it a greater understanding then I pause and wonder whether I am for real or it is just a wish. I am trying to tell God about a hope in my heart, this kind of desire, but it is like I am seated on a fence and I am giving God misguided intention. I do not want any heartbreaks and it is not like I am hoping for one. I made God a promise that I would not let Him down and that I would stick to the hope in my heart come what may. I do not want to give up on this one and I want it to really work.
I have no justifications whatsoever, or may be it is a plea...on the surface I am not really sure how to say things and even blogging might not help get things straight in my heart.
But despite my troubles, God still is patient with me and asks me to lift up my eyes from where I am. It is like He has paused and taken my hand and is telling me something that I really need to hear.
I cannot lose hope at this point in my life, I can neither go back nor sit in my position and worry or be troubled. The opportunities awaiting me are vast and God is encouraging me to reach out with stretched up to conquer what I hope for.
But what puts my spirit back to the top is He knows what I am going through and that is why He asks me to lift up my eyes. God has assured me that all will happen at the right time.
And I will continue to pray until something happens.
